From Faggot to Bitch

Molli Sparkles

Quilt maker to the stars. Spiller of truth tea.

39 Responses

  1. Cloudy Wishes says:

    Bloody hell you have a way with words, tugs at my heart strings. Love and light to you, your strength will always shine xxx

  2. Buffy says:

    I really appreciate you sharing these parts of yourself to inspire others

  3. Francesca says:

    I cried. Then I laughed. But my eyes are still tearing. Many people are so stupidly and needlessly cruel. Why? I don’t know. And yes words can still reverberate for many years in one’s brain. I’m 56 and grew up in a cosmopolitan family in a little island. Very Roman Catholic and insular, but luckily my parents though religious were also liberal and cool. Plus my sisters were much older than me and we all travelled a lot. Loads of friends hanging round and coming to dinners and parties – of all nationalities and tastes. The only time I heard a comment was when one silly friend of my sister was crushing on a guy and was told to open her eyes and move on because he didnt go for women…Which meant the days some silly little school “friend” told me the man i had just waved to was an Arab or “unnatural” and “YUCK” made me react with disgust and contempt. Later I’d react with sarcasm and call them small and pathetic. So i realised from a young age how awful and stupid people can be. Bless you for surviving these tiny dicked jerks and emerging stronger and more beautiful- like a butterfly.
    Oh, and I LOVE the quilt though I’m not a quilter 😍😍

    And ps in my island we still use the word bitch a lot but only (at least the people I know) when we’re calling out someone who’s cruel and spiteful… as in that guy who called out of the window was such a bitch….

  4. Lynne says:

    Thanks for the insights Molli. It’s a great read.

  5. Molly says:

    You continue to amaze me! Thanks for being just who you are!

  6. Caroline says:

    And….THIS is why it’s so important you’re here. The sewing, but also the words. (Or the words, but also the sewing?) Glad you’re getting your mojo back!

  7. Kate sandford says:

    LOVE IT 😍

  8. Valarie says:

    Thanks for sharing a part of your journey, a sobering and touching read. Small minds can have a big impact and it’s just plain wrong, but overcoming the meanest of those among us , opens our minds and hearts.
    The pillow is awesome…super color selection, love it!

  9. Carrolyn v says:

    A sad but informative piece of your heart. In my mountain cabin up here in the remote pacific NW, I am touched. Words are powerful ……and can move mountains, travel far, and pierce souls. But they can also comfort and mend. Take care of yourself, dear man! Your pillow is DIVINE. Perhaps a little touch of liquid glitter on the letters????

  10. Paula says:

    Oh dearest! I cried, I laughed and then cried some more. You definitely tug at my heart strings, all the time. See, my BBMF ( best best MALE friend) is gay. He’s my brother in life. Listening to your sharp words, it’s like hearing him speaking out all those same feelings and reflections. We too use words to name each other. I wonder why certain people can’t see beyond any sort of mental stereotype? It really is that difficult? Life would be so much more simpler. Oh! And i’m too sure, you too would love my friend as much as I do.
    Thank for letting the world know the power of words. Thank you for being so raw. So you. 😘💕

  11. SuzK says:

    WOW! It’s sad we can’t truly explain/teach kids the true affect of words. I was called fat a lot and it shaped my life in many ways. I’m an old lady now (in age only) and I can look back and realize the harm and look forward and not give a damn! This is a great pillow and I love all the thought that went into it. Your bgff is very lucky!

  12. Words are crazy powerful. I remember being told to say, “Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.” Some of the worst advice I ever received. Thanks for sharing such a personal story. I love the idea of reclaiming words and using them to mean something else. I moved to the deep south when I was in 2nd grade and was scolded for not responding to teachers with “sir” or “ma’am”. If I ever sir or ma’am someone, it is the OPPOSITE of showing respect. Just saying.

  13. Jennifer Kinney says:

    The world is just so full of idiots! Just trying to keep it clean. Sorry for all the hurtful moments. I have a 24 year old son who has been in a wheelchair his whole life. Some of the things we have had to endure over the years have been horrendous! From teachers at the school who couldn’t deal with having a special needs child in their room and administration who thought they could force us to send him to a “Special School”. He has cerebral palsy and autism but he is very intelligent and has the right to learn like any other kid in the school. Thank goodness we learned his rights and fought for them! Plus I’m very stubborn and love my family! I know this isn’t the same things you have faced but just know you have some followers here who believe in you and support you. Not much I can do here in Illinois but offer moral support. Color, nationality, gender, sexual preference (I hope that’s an acceptable term), and ability do not matter to me. It’s all about respect for each other and just trying to be nice to one another and spread some peace and love. Take care!

  14. Tanya says:

    And this is why i love your blog, you say it like it is and keep it real. My youngest son is gay and has suffered both physically and emotionally at the hands and tongues of narrow minded people. As he gets older hes learning to deal with it but it still cuts deep. You keep being your fabulous self Molli the world is a better place for having you in it. Love the cushion, your “bitch ” is lucky to have you as a bgff ❤

  15. Ellen says:

    Love the pillow, love the fabric, love the tip about painters tape! Love you for standing tall. Thanks for keep those cards and letters (blog pages) coming!

  16. Katie says:

    You are an amazing human!!! Thank you for sharing, I totally believe in Karma and we may never know how it kicks someone in the ass, but it will. Hateful people are doomed! Love your blog, your creations, your honesty❤️❤️❤️

  17. Sharon says:

    Sometimes it more than just the word and how it was used. Sometimes it is who used it too.

  18. Dorothy says:

    I love it all–the word, the pillow, the colors, and most of all your posting of it all. Wish I could give you a real hug 🙂

  19. Lisa says:

    A fabulous read, and a gorgeous pillow! Thank you for sharing your courage, vulnerability, and talent. The world is definitely richer with you in it, exactly as colorful as you are. Sending virtual hugs from an ally in equality-is-still-a-ways-off Utah. Cheers! (and a thumbs up for all the other lovely, supportive comments here!)

  20. Margo says:

    I came from a foreign country. I can’t count how many times people yelled at me to go back where I came from as if I had no right to be here. As hard as I tried but I never could response back, I wish I had your courage. I love this country and do my hardest to give back to the community. I taught my children to be good and productive citizens, to never take things for granted. Thanks for sharing your life, your talents and yourself. Enjoy your blog very much.

  21. Susan the Farm Quilter says:

    Reading the title of this post, I wondered how you were going to go from a piece of fire wood to a female dog. Words can flay you to the bone, shred your heart and destroy your life or they can uplift, encourage and make life wonderful. I’ll choose to use the latter and be around others who do the same. I honestly do not understand how someone can be deliberately cruel to another person. About the pillow…I thought you made it for me! I umpire adult softball and for years I was the only female to do so…so I became the self-proclaimed “Bitch in Blue” so your pillow is absolutely perfect!!!

  22. Honora says:

    I absolutely love this! It screams, “Don’t fuck with me!”. I’m having my cousin make me one immediately.

  23. Jean says:

    I was just coming to check, and there you were. You are a beautiful man. Continue waking the world, one sip at a time!
    -Jean💟💟

  24. Salamanda says:

    Well said and so true about the power of words. I am so proud of my son who takes on the world and was horrified to hear someone refer to him as a poof. What the fuck. He’s a successful 28 year old man who likes men. Why is this an issue? In my work I still encounter young people who have not been told right from wrong but education has to play a part. Love you Molli

  25. Amoreena says:

    You do have a way with prose. I agree we need to own how we let words affect us, but that’s not always an easy path to take. As I’m sure I’ve said here before, if not to you in convo, the negative things people say to you says more about them than it does about you. Hugs!

  26. Marta J. says:

    Love this post, and the cushion. You make me smile!

  27. Leanne says:

    I love the pillow and its lovely that you shared the story. Words are powerful and so is the courage to be comfortable in your own skin. It’s all a journey.

  28. helen says:

    I always feel that behind every bully using cruel words, there is somebody who is so insecure in themselves, they have to threaten others. I had a recent conversation with my sister about the word slut. It seems to have become part of common speech amongst her son’s peers, but the use of the word is to me to be very offensive. Cruel and hurtful. But that’s just me, maybe

  29. Aileen AKA Greeneggs says:

    Amazing post, Molli. Great crafting. Fuck the jerks.

  30. Neame says:

    It isn’t the words, per se. I have learned to cope with those. It’s the freight of violence those words carry – the threat of abuse, physical punishment, terror. Some say “what violence?!” I say to those: open your eyes and look around. I’ve noticed ugly words are used most by those either backed by a mob, or sheltered by dark or closed doors: clear indications that the perps know their behavior is wrong.

  31. Neame says:

    Forgot to say: these words used by members of the group (whatever group that is) to one another is where the words get redefined. It’s cultural in that case.

    Thanks, Mollie, for sparking another good discussion.

  32. Lisa R says:

    Wow! Wow! Wow! What a great storyteller you are! I felt the shame you felt as I read your story. Thank you for sharing. <3

  33. Paula says:

    You are quite the talented storyteller as well as gifted quilter. It brought tears to my eyes to hear of your cruel encounter. It pulls at my heartstrings because I know that my son (also a gifted, loving and openly gay man) also experiences similar cruel encounters. But like you, he is very comfortable in who he is in spite of the crazy mixed up world we live in. I think it is those who aren’t so comfortable who tend to be the ones to lash out. I love that I found your blog….Lorna (Sew Fresh Quilts) sent me your way❤️

  34. Beautiful tribute for a wonderful friend. Well done!

  35. Roz Lipchitz says:

    There’s new fag & tranny store on Fountain & Vine in Hollywood and it needs to be shutdown or moved to West Hollywood where all the sickos belong because this is a respectable neighborhood!

    • Roz – Did you even read my blog post? Are you a quilter? Do you realise I’m a gay, male quilter?

      Maybe you should fuck off before you come to me complaining about my community.

      Sparkles,
      Molli

    • tdspringer says:

      You know Roz….it’s a simple matter of, if you don’t like it, DON’T SHOP THERE. The world doesn’t revolve around you and your wants and needs. There are approximately 7.9 BILLION other people in the world. It would be pure chaos if every one of us was as self-absorbed and whiney as you are. As far as I am concerned YOU are the sicko….so hateful. Shame on you.

  36. infinity111 says:

    The word Faggot is not what it appears to be at the surface; if you do some research, such as “etymology” or the history of words, you will find that their was an old saying back in the 1800’s early 1900’s and from time to time you may hear it or you may not depending on what church you attend if you attend church at all; that saying was “faggots go to the fire” which people took to mean that they will burn in hell; however that is not really the true meaning; the term came form steel workers in steel mills where steel forms were being produced for building things with steel, and when the hot molten steel was poured into forms there was always some left over that was not used, and that left over molten steel was called a faggot, and new workers were always trained and told the faggots go back into the fire, which is what they did with them to be reformed into molten steel and eventually poured into one of the forms to make a product that the factory was producing for the market. It was from this saying “the faggots go to the fire” in the steel mills where the later saying of bible thumpers, preachers faggots go to the fire” came form, and in the new use the so called “faggots” were the men who were homosexual, who now became the new faggots, going to the fire of hell, which proves that it is not literal as in you will literally go to eternal hell fire, there is no such thing, that is a false interpretation, even when the steel faggot goes back to the fire it is only to be eventually recycles into a form, and sent to market; so when you look at this set of facts as well as the other uses of the word faggot, such as a bundle of sticks, called faggots; and the bundle of facia sticks called the symbol of the Fascia, or the symbol of fascism, a bundle of sticks bound together, you can derive the essence of the true meaning by carefully putting all the elements into their true context, and you will get the real essential meaning, instead of the distorted common version that gets passed around because it is based on only an emotional reaction, not any detached and impartial objective realization of pure truth ! Nothing is the way it appears at the surface ! You have to penetrate to the core to get the real essence and truth of anything !

Spill the truth tea.